WTF am I thinking: September 2013

Monday, September 23, 2013

Letter to my future self

Today I turn 23 32.

I like to think I have learned from all my past mistakes. That I will know what I need to do and when I need to do it. So I think I need to write myself a letter so the future me knows how far I have come.

Dear Me,

You are another year older and wiser, not to mention rounder. Sitting here now think about how far you have come. You have overcome obstacles that would shatter a weaker person. You have suffered devastating losses yet you are still here. A little broken and bent, but stronger for making it through mostly intact. You have lost your biggest cheerleader and found that there are more people in this big ole world that care for you and want to see you succeed. You have made new friends and lost old ones. You have went through a horrible marriage, and when you thought you were to be forever alone you met the one person in the world that completes you and understands your craziness. You brought 3 precious lives into this world. And no matter how scary those first moments were, you are better because of them. You will continue to make mistakes and learn from them. And pass that knowledge onto your children. You are beautiful and are where you need to be. Life is always an uphill climb, and it wouldn't be worth living if we didn't stumble from time to time.

Think back on all that you have been through. Are you where you were 5 years ago? No. Will you ever get lost time back? No.

All you can do is look forward, keep putting one foot in front of the other, and remember that life is beautiful.

Monday, September 16, 2013

It's the most wonderful time of the year

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! I love Fall! This is the best time of the year for me. I love love love.... did I mention love it?

I love living in Virginia this time of the year. We only live 10 minutes from the park way and have beautiful views of the changing leaves out our back door.

Not to hot, not to cold, this makes for a happy Mommy!!!

I love that hunting season is a month away, I have been dying for a wild turkey ( not the drink, however that would never be turned down ), and some delectable deer tenderloin. The Middle Little is practicing with her bow with hopes of hunting with the Hubs this season. I'm so proud of her <3 p="">

^^^^^^^ See that? Yep, when the ZA happens she will be able to stand her own with Daryl Dixon!!!

This is the time of year where I take a break from constant TTC and spend more time doing me and things we enjoy as a family. As a whole I am a whole lot less stressed.

It's time for pumpkin patches, hay rides, candy, costumes, haunted houses, candy, trick or treating, ... did I mention candy?

This is when I obsess over Zombie babies, and other cute decorations that I would leave out year round.

Speaking of costumes, we have been scouring the interwebs for the perfect costumes for the littles. The oldest wants to be a Military Babe. The Middle Little wants to be well hell I don't really know what she wants to be, she likes everything. and my Little Little is going to be a Zombie .... unless I find something frighteningly cute.

We go through out horror flick faze.

Yep this is the most wonderful time of the year!!!

Friday, September 13, 2013

The world is a scary place....

I remember when I was younger being able to run all over the neighborhood and not have my Mom worrying about what could happen to me. The world was a much safer place then, or maybe we just didn't hear about all the awfulness back then like we do now. Oh how I wish we could go back to living in that little bubble of safety.

Not it's not just small children that we need to teach about "Stranger Danger".

We have to adapt new teaching to out teens and young adults.

As out children get older they seek independence from Ole Mom and dad. It is no longer cool to be chaperoned by the "rents".

This is when we must beat into their heads that the world is not a safe place.

Here are some tips to help keep our babies safe, and hopefully lower the chance of something happening to them.

1: Safety in numbers. When going out make sure you have at least 1 other friends with you. NEVER go off alone in a crowded venue. Even if it's to the bathroom or to go outside to get some fresh air. ALWAYS TAKE A BUDDY!!!!!! the Buddy System worked in Kindergarten just as good as it does now.

2: Always let a parent know where you will be and when you will be expected home.

3. Be responsible. Underage drinking is never OK, and you can put yourself in dangerous situations. If you are of age, drink responsibly. Always have a designated driver and at least 1 non drinker per person drinking.

4. Be aware. Make sure you check out your surroundings. If something feels "off" it usually is. Follow your gut and get out of there.

5. Online. This is a big deal. NEVER EVER EVER meet someone you have never meet before online in public alone. Always take a buddy. And if things feel weird get the heck out of Dodge. Always meet in well lit and populated areas. Never give out personal information.

6. If you encounter what seems to be a person with bad motives and you feel threatened scream. Yelling FIRE is super helpful.

7. If your at a store and feel like you are being followed, go to a cashier, security guard, or even a frazzled looking Mom with young children and express your fears.

8. Aerosol hairspray is a great thing to have . Get a small can and keep it in your hand while walking out to your car. If something happens that little can could very well give you time to save your life.

Just remember the world is a scary place.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Can we say Blogger Idol

That's right Bitches. I know I suck and am a total slacker, but times are a changin and this lil chicky is auditioning :) Please go like the Official Blogger Idol page and let them know you want ME to make it to the Top 13!
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It could happen to anyone

I have easily spent the better part of the last 39 days praying for the safe return of a local 17 year old High School Senior.

I can easily put myself in her family's position, feel their worry, pain , and fear.

This is Alexis Murphy. and she is missing.......

Think about it......

This outgoing, athletic, popular teen should be enjoying he final year in High school. Preparing herself for college, getting excited about graduation, final dances, and volleyball games, enjoying her friends and family. But she isn't. No one knows where this child is.

Alexis was last seen Aug. 3 at the Liberty gas station off U.S. 29 in Lovingston. She told her family she was headed to Lynchburg to get hair extensions for her senior portrait.

Seems so easy. Her car was found in a populated location in Charlottesville Virginia. How did this happen? Where is she?

Though there have been leads and someone is in custody charged with her abduction, where is Alexis Murphy? Her cell phone has been found.

Yet still no trace of Alexis.....

Someone somewhere knows something.

I keep looking at my 3 little girls and think this could be them in a few years. The world is no longer a safe place for my babies. For anyone's babies.

How is any parent supposed to let their child gain independence when things like this happen?

Why isn't anyone talking?

Although everyone is holding out hope that she will be found alive and well soon, you can't help but have that little thought in the back of your mind. What if she isn't......

Her car was found in the same town that Morgan Harrington went missing from while in the area for a Metallica concert.

Once again a beautiful young girl that had her whole life ahead of her. Only her story isn't stuck in the middle of not knowing. Morgan was found, just not as everyone hoped and prayed she would be.

Please God, don't let Alexis be a repeat of Morgan.

And that's not it.

Dashad Sage Smith also went missing from Charlottesville 9 months ago.

The man in custody was also a suspect in the disappearance of Samantha Clarke in 2010.

Things can change in the blink of an eye.

I pray and I hope you all will as well that these families find solace and peace and answers soon. I pray that these children are alive and well and will be reunited with their families soon.

I also pray that although we may be able to imagine the pain they are going through that no one ever has to go through it again. You should never have to wonder if and when you will ever see your child again.